I've always wondered what sort of ethnic group I fit into... my ancestors were both native american (and possibly Spanish, since it's highly likely that some of the invading hordes had raped and impregnated some of my ancestors, while destroying over 90% of the original native population with the diseases they brought with their unwashed and filthy bodies) and Polish (with the blood of God only knows how many conquerors), and yet for some reason, I don't seem to have much, if any, cultural heritage to speak of. I have been assimilated. I am a nameless, faceless American, and I feel pretty crappy about this. My parents apparently do not feel that they need to tell me about the culture and beliefs of my ancestors, and/or they fully expect me to go to the library and research everything on my own. Why is my family like this? Do they have no pride?!

I personally tend to think of myself as White, since I seem to fit all the generic characteristics of one (and I don't look particularly greasy, although that's a matter of opinion); I live in an average house, in an area that is statistically 98% white, has a noticably low crime rate, my parents bring in over 100k a year, and...and I'm average. Perfectly average. I have pretty much nothing that distinguishes me from the crowd except for a high IQ, and that probably won't get me anywhere unless I head off to college sometime in the next 2 years and major in something or other. Another thing that annoys the hell out of me is that I have no idea as to what I want to do...I don't know what careers I'd be interested in (because I don't really know all that's available), and I'm not exactly sure what would be required in reaching my goals, once I figure out what they are.

*sigh*...I feel so jaded...my life has not turned out as well as I hoped it would when I was 12 and full of hopes (I wanted to be a lawyer...hehe) for a better, money-enriched life. But I got sidetracked...